Month: December 2020

I have heard that the year 2020 signifies perfect vision. While I wouldn’t say my “vision” is perfect, it is definitely improving. My relationship with God is much stronger than ever before. I feel like my soul has been awaken to the things that matter. It is very easy for me to get caught up in the world’s way of thinking. 

It is God’s way of thinking that will set you free and help you to feel peace in every situation – AKA having perfect vision. I am more receptive to the work God is doing in me and around me. I have noticed that I am not as easily offended by others.  

All of these things makes me feels like there are layers being shed off of me and my spirit is able to flourish. It seems like I have made leaps and bounds on my spiritual journey on earth.  

Something else that has changed within me, is that I do feel like I am on a journey. Earth is not home and I really do feel like I am just passing through. It makes me be more aware of how I spend my time and who I spend my time with. Family has become a top priority. I am also making sure I am not spending my time scrolling through meaningless posts or working my life away to obtain materialistic items.  

Reflecting back on the year, I see that God has made something beautiful from a time where Satan has been trying his best to break us. Churches can be shut down, visiting loved ones can be unadvised, and cities can be put on hold but this does not dim God’s love. He is everywhere and in everything. His love is true and the only constant that we can rely on in this world. 

I have been truly blessed in 2020 and will continue to worship God for all he does.

You do not have to answer to anyone but yourself.

This thought hit me hard today because I was thinking through a social interaction that I had earlier in the day and I had the urge to go back to the person and explain myself as to why I was going to act a certain way. Then I stopped and realized, I do not have to explain myself to this person. The situation literally has no effect on her and I do not need her permission on how I was going to handle it. It made me realize that I actually do this a lot – feeling like I need to have someone else’s approval before I do something that effects my life. 

I do not owe anyone my happiness and you don’t either. Make the decision that feels right for you and be confident in it. You will feel more at peace doing what you think is best, rather than trying to appease someone else.

The past few months I have slowed down, or completely halted, on my blog posts. The reason being is that I accepted a Lead Coaching position for a high school cheer team. Man has it been a wild ride and we are only 1 game into the season…  

I have never felt so defeated in my life. On the other hand, I do really enjoy being back into the cheer scene and expressing my creativity through cheer.  

I guess I never realized how involved some parents can be with their child’s extracurricular because my parents never were. They were there to take me to and from every practice, game, competition, and tumbling class. They supported me all 10 years I cheered and sat through all the harsh weather, uncomfortable bleachers, and long haul away games that we attended. Where my parents differ from other cheer parents is that they never questioned my coaches’ decisions. 

When coaching first began, myself and my co-coach were approached to meet with the principal and the parents of an upset cheerleader. She was not happy with the team we placed her on and had to explain ourselves about our decision making process. We were questioned by the parents and felt like we were under a microscope. Although, I will say the principal was very supportive throughout this process and was there to help us coaches.

When cheer things are good, they are really good, though. I leave practice feeling reenergized, confident, and accomplished. It has been a creative outlet for me to come up with new stunts, cheers, and ways to do things. I have also found a new friendship with the other coach.  

This has been a humbling experience, to say the least. I definitely have even more respect for coaches, teachers, principals, and anyone else in that sort of position.  

The entire situation made me rely on God to get me through it and to defend me. Just like in Psalm 31:2 Turn your ear to me, come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me. I trust that God will defend me and I will come out a stronger person.  

I write this while still being in the midst of the cheer journey. If I were to say, right now, what I though the lesson out of this was, I would say I am being taught to be confident in my decisions and willing to defend what I think is right.